I was looking through some old papers and I found a poem I wrote last year. Its not that great but if yall could read it and give me some read back that'd be great:) I know i need to work on the grammer and puncuation and probably wording and all that jazz but yea here it is:)
Please and Thank You:)<3
locked up, confined by my own doing
tears sting my eyes brought on by your betrayal
I cant get out of this box i put myself in.
despite my knowlege from past expirience
I went for it, somethign so far out of reach.
My massachistic heart fell,
new cuts become pronounced,
old scars still etched in.
My head,still full of painful memories,
held on for quite sometime.
But soon it lost to the battle of the heart.
I gave it my all forgot the lessons learned.
It didnt take long for you to shatter
my heart, my soul, my dreams come true.
So here I lay on floor, numb.
I want to get up, wipe my tears and past (our past) away.
But i cant, I still hurt adn the only thing keeping me from the blade
is the little voice that tells me i will get up and walk away
if only for one day night...i will be free
free of hate, free of hurt, free of longing
free of you.
until then ill wait locked in my box
ill wait for time to heal and maybe next time
ill remember the reasons for the etching on my masochistic heart.